After a week of two times two minutes of playing per day, I…

After a week of two times two minutes of playing per day, I have to give it a rest.   I don’t want to but after mowing the lawn and doing a little bit of yard work three days ago and then doing my 2X2 as well in that day, I could barely move my finger the next day.

The ache was extreme so I took the day off playing.   I was surprised at how much it was aching.  Often I will feel it as weather pressure changes and we are expecting a big shift in the weather this week but this was intense.

And it didn’t let up the next day either.  So I didn’t play yesterday.   And the way I’ve woken up to a painful knuckle again this morning, I’d say it’s unlikely that I will play again today.

Or ever?………

I’m going through a LOT of grief around this right now.   I was feeling reassured that this was how I was going to strengthen things up and be able to do some of the stuff I like to do again…. But now I’m NOT so sure.   And it’s this realization that has me wondering if I will ever be pain free in my hand again??

I’ve got another doctor’s appointment  in a couple of weeks to talk more about it.  What I would really like is to get some deep imagery done on it and see what’s really going on.  I’ve been told that that kind of stuff only happens if they are planning surgery… maybe surgery is in the cards?  I don’t know.

I do know that I don’t want to keep living like this.    Voltarin rubbed on my finger helps to relieve the pain a little bit but it’s short lived and I have heard that it’s easy to overdose on it.   

So what to I do now?  Guitar therapy is on hold until further notice… or at least until I see the doc again.

It’s brought up the feeling that I’ve been wronged through this again.  My employer failed in providing its duty of care toward me in two important ways and I’m feeling really strongly that I’d like to explore whether I have some legal recourse there.   I need to be able to afford a lawyer to have that convo.

I also plan to talk to the people at worksafe in the disability payment stream.   Just to make sure my life struggles are being considered in my situation and not just future employability.

On the positive, guitar playing or not, I’m feeling really inspired as I put together my proposal to start a new career training as a software developer!!!

Anyone out there in Web3 have any tips or suggestions, since I can’t play the guitar?

What a wild ride!!!