MarkKordusic ·
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metamitya ·
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MarkKordusic ·
Damn i did it, i somehow somehow , and ok this is not going to pe a super fussy spotless edited thing.
One may even make a mistake, even two!
One may have been terrified of their own photo and cant bare to look at it.
Same with writing speaking, recording their voice and posting it to treechat ?
People could say things ?
Oh no oh dear but yor using your real name your real voice , you didnt even try to make it cool or fancy , you made a spelling mistake. You didnt even check what you said or wrote you just posted it on treechat. You stopped before you finished?
And then maybe somewhere someone even said what on earth is this guy doing? There must be something wrong with him i dont trust him.
They could say something about me they could call me swear word and worse. And here i stop unfinishrd un checked un proof read
Then i keep going and say , no i didnt say anything.
I typed on a keyboard on a phone its called "writing"
I typed if you believe in Jesus and post your photo here in this thread , and i write here if you are really with me not against me and post your photo here in this thread on treechat with gm at the top im thinking now , if someone did that they might be really with me not against me , they might really believe in Jesus . And wow that would be something yeah?
That would be really something.
Or it could be something else.
Im telling you afyer many years , evem decades you start to get a relly clear picture of who is really with you mate. Ok another thing .
This is my place of work, this is my home, im evicted, dont be surprised if im being myself here , dont be surprised or be surprised , i can tell you know and say thete will be times ill look on this day on this thread treechat my thoughts my life and may not feel super thrilled and happy .
But ive done it ive conquered a couple of my biggest fears, moved past hating my own guts so much i didnt do anything like this .
But yeah this is called writing my friend.
Yeah who ever , w…
maxXx ·
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MarkKordusic ·
If you want to chat join my team need help , anything at this is the thread i may respond straight away i dont know i have never done something like this before, i dont even know exactly what ive written.
Ok yeah i wont encourage you to write to me here , i encourage you to do the best good stuff for you and your family.
But yeah im doing this ive done it , my new office my place of work my decision yeah its scary, doing something like writing and really trying and getting into well is it the internet , is it treechat . Yeah its treechat im telling you its where i chose to do something by the looks of things.
Yep this is where there is a good chance you can reach me. I think it is somewhat like my doors open non stop anytime. Yeah does it look like if you really are ready to work with me or even write to each other on here. Where everyone if they looked could see , they could call it crazy , silly ugly , even cringe
Ok here we go . New Chapter.
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Ok why post music from youtube here because there is no comercials youtube is not a place that allows me to manage my music selections and makes me extreamly angry. And im sick of typing and id like to think i know when to stop typing and posting youtube music to this thread could be the best decision that i could make right now when i look at the alternatives . Theres two selections in my head that dont go togeyher that well but . Who said that the music here must be a certain way . These two producions are in my mind and dont really know what else to do . Ive been playing music since 1979 and i dont like talking about music . I dont like talking or writing. I even start stressing thinking about posting two posts of music here. Like really stressing bad.
MarkKordusic ·
Massive massive shout out to Maxxx.
Right now ill tell you this you have made today much easier and better than it was just being here and being you and i hope i really hope that we can achieve some good good things in our lives.
Thats what this is for . Good things , yeah i f theres anything i can do to help you achieve good stuff i like striving for doing better than i ever thoight possible , yea no pressure but yeah i dont know or have that much else that i can do now acvept stop typing. And say Maxxx im here and i dare say i will stay here the toughest part is done i know ive picked the right place and done well the best thing that i could being realistic . God bless Maxxx.
maxXx ·
God bless you too 🙏 abundantly... reward yourself always...
MarkKordusic ·
And yeah theres a thing on here called an upvalue.
When your on the other side of the world and maybe you want to reach out some
How and not trying to buy or scam or anything. You well im not even looking at it as sending money. Its this button that when you press it it sends bitcoins or a bitcoin or satoshis and or with a picture that allows you to communicate something and we dont over think it weve been sending each other satoshis for years i just do it its not being financial material istic what else can i actually do i got a raging bull terrier that toyally dominates my life and is hard bloody hard work and sheel be up any minute or could keep sleeping i cant breath loudly or put a song on loud because shell start barking strait away. So yeah i cant go for a walk cant do a srt of pushups in the loungeroom which o desperately nedd and must start doing , im actually toyally burned out like never before because honestly its too much for me to handle i need to be doing tones more excersice but im just recovering still from two years of looking after her every single day and my back is broken , im not complaining one bit . I love her to death , but she is bloody bloody hard work as in the mental concentration neccesary for me to control my temper how much ihave to think my head is recked mate but its feeling much better
And i love her so much i dont know what to do.
But yeah i dont over think it sometimes i just send bitcoin with an emoticon we used to call it what else can one do. I just need bitcoin in my life because its my chosen area of work and study one of them a big oneof them and not having it i can tell you sux , buying it sux and not knowing how to buy it sux more. I just will try to get as much as i can but not obsess or anything or make abig deal out of it but i tell you if it goes to a thousand dollars or more , im telling you you can basically be on position to a , be normal or b. Be in a position to do more good in this world than you …
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https://youtube.com/watch?v=wUgIueh8Ppg&si=5-EbpO2RvJdNjgYE
MarkKordusic ·
Yep i have one default mood and setting worried about my dog. And i feel for her so much i cant actually take it every day is a rollecoaster of agony inside for her until i can find somewhere she will be safe and happy permanently or im overjoyed wen shes happy and i give her a hug she is the best thing i dont know im still comung to terms with it but i love her more than i can cope with and id kill for her or die for her.
MarkKordusic ·
https://youtube.com/watch?v=tHnwV5ay8-8&si=g7jyPHrz_O9g8ppK
And im not a raver ive never been to a concert but i heard sunlight outside a festival and experienced something ive never before bass that travels through the ground i was outside the gates working.
But i have been born and raised next to an old analog record player and was exposed to the real home vinyl sound in my first formative years. And my grandfather was carrying the tirch of his ancestors a real macedonian muso that could play any istrument and he did it till his last days and i caught a glimpse it was in his blood and it got passed on to my blood thats why im like this if you know you know . My point yeah i stumbled apon it and it was a few hours , it took me as i said my whole life to feel it and when you do you might not want to or need to again but its there in prayer and thats all i know and my gut feeling is thats how i know they are the real deal , i really dont think this particular i dont know wat it even is but its in the origional prayer all o can say is the remix es are great but im talking the holy grail and im telling you thats my best shot at giving you a chance to experience it . Proof theyve had the torch passed to them , thats all i have to ever say about music ever im retired now. Thats how much of a gift it is its beyond comprehension . This is is as close can describe it. Any more and ill kill the vibe totally . I must stop here.
Ok its the video in this one who lnows maybe there i more magic good magic from god in this one but ill just say this ive experienced enough magic from this track audio only but this video describes the experince in prayer but its only in prayer . The one im talking about . But i did get to feel something like it in burns no more, now i remember its the vocal and some sacred geomotry resonance frequency beat combined see if i didnt keep going overboard i maybe would have forgot forever and youl be singing burns no more the next day a…
metamitya ·
maybe you will like [[synthwave]]
MarkKordusic ·
See now it hit me why i had to do just list last few music posts i forgot how much god loves me and i recieved the gift from him that even years later if you forget you can still maybe remember and then now just remembering im instantantly better how could you not be but it sux typing and recounting but if it happened to you you would one day want to help others and try realy hard to document it , id say its the highlight of my life but as i said its not a pleasure at all its a healing once in a lifetime thing
I dont know if this combination of elements could maybe hapoen with other stuff i would call it a holy grail repeting over and over breathing and crying some sacred geometry freqency experience.
MarkKordusic ·
I tell you roller coaster
https://youtube.com/watch?v=9S5lTgyfT2c&si=DAOgYagUihbCaOIf
MarkKordusic ·
I don't know how to express the relief , the joy,
actual joy.
I tell you Metamitya for you to share a music link in this thread. Do you know how i know you know your stuff?
Of all the material ive posted here you picked 4ware. When that happened i knew.
Make yourself at home here Metamitya the more recommendations from you the better
thankyou for blessing this thread with your presence and any links artwork anything from you is more than welcome and i encourage it. But no pressure .
What a roller coaster the last few days have been.
But sorry to put a dampener on things you might notice some neater communication from me here if you swing past again, now ive got tobbaco smoke in my lungs i bit the bullet and lashed out on a pack of winni blues 20's and no doubt you've seen the latest on youtube from Gavin Mehl's channel.
Hard for me to hold on to any fleeting moments of joy and relief. But im quietly hoping and praying for
.
I can't find the words . Gavin if by any chance you stumble on this post ive left my number with one of the BSV community and im here 24hrs a day 7days a week if you're up for a quick call or long call.
Been through some stuff the last 8 months myself . Ive lost track of time its like its been 8 weeks. Love you mate and may God be with you and your family.
I 'll leave at that metamitya and continue on a new post out of respect.
MarkKordusic ·
So this new chapter business.
Im pretty sure ive my minds totally blank.
Ok moving right along i might be all over the place with my topics in this post but my attention is on spelling , no llm involvemet, as that was the first thing on my to do list when i left substack permanantly, lowest word count possible , have a strict subject matter and stick to it now i think ive conquered my biggest fears posting a photo and posting a voice reply to be able to avoid phone typing ,
and get stuck into an audio reply to steffan which i'm not going to focus at all on how i sound and just read the reply which will be hand written and read in a purposefully monotonous manner as to just get the reply done and also focus pronoouncing words clearly in a uniform consistent serious manner as to not distract steffen with anything if he hopefully choses to listen to the reply which i hope very much that he does as he is one of (please forgive my bad memory ) the only people that i can remember talking to in depth about Dr.Craig Wright.
and in one of his replys he is one of the few people that i have talked to ever that has an understanding of Bitcoin that in his reply he basically forced me to step up my BSV reasearch bigtime, and its not the first time .
Thefirst reply i ever recieved from steffen he in the first paragraph he without knowing what i had been grappling with and what was holding my computer learning back for ive lost count of the years , 5 or 6 minimum he brought to my attention an operating system called plan 9 and it was a reply to a post about forth the programing language that is one of my primary goals to get help with.
He also did a bitcoin video which impessed me greatly which i cant remember but know i was very impressed with.
Unfortunately i cant remember why exactly and when i chose that term so ill skip to the final points .
Update on invitations to treechat and BSV investment recommendation.
Ive sent an invitation to my uncle in macedonia to join …
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5am , 25 hours with no sleep. Thats ridiculous.
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Ok ive been taking milk thistle tablets one a day in the hope that there would be some improvement in a feeling of wellbieing, reduced sickness feeling .
And no sickness feeling watsoever this morning.
After 4 hrs sleep. Normaly 10 hours isnt enough.
And i have just stood in the kitchen and just positive thought after positive thought to the point i thought to myself ok mark dont repeat a past behaviourioral pattern thats been ingrainedin you for decades which is the inability to have a positive feeling acompanied by a sense of wellbeing combined with improvement of mental dealing with feeilings of trmendous mental distress .
, add these i dont know.
Things which ive observed not just being something ive always hoped for and never remember feeling all of them together.
Then standing in kitchen thinking na mark dont do a post.
And then thinking ok try doing a one sentence post for a while see if you can . This post inst that long.
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I really want to work on treechat and talk to people but tonight i can barely type two lines
maxXx ·
hey mate dont beat yourself up
some days the world only asks for two lines and thats enough ❤️
the conversations will still be there tomorrow and so will the people who enjoy hearing from you
rest isnt falling behind its part of moving forward
hope tomorrow gives you a bit more energy and a few reasons to smile youve got this 🌱