I’ve been leaving the TV talking Just to soften the edge of…

I’ve been leaving the TV talking
Just to soften the edge of the room
Letting voices I don’t care about
Stand in for you
I go further than I mean to
Like I never know where to stop
Every time I get close to something real
I tighten it up till it drops
If you find your way to me
Let it be because you tried
Not because I pulled on you
Not because I tried to hide
I’ve been rehearsing conversations
They don’t land the same out loud
By the time I get to the moment
I’ve already worn it out
I don’t know how to hold it steady
Without changing what it is
I either let it slip through my hands
Or close them into a fist
If you find your way to me
Let it be because you tried
Not because I pulled on you
Not because I tried to hide
I know you’re somewhere on the other side
Of whatever lit our spark
I’m not reaching now
I’m just keeping the light
If you find your way to me
Let it be because you tried
Not because I pulled on you
Not because I tried to hide
There’s a way you can hold something lightly
Without making it disappear
But I’ve never been good at the balance
I either vanish or pull it too near
There’s a version of me that stands steady
Doesn’t bargain to be seen
Doesn’t twist into someone you needed
Doesn’t ask what you mean
I’ve been learning the shape of that person
Letting quiet fill in the frame
If you meet me there, it’s not by accident
We just wanted the same
If you find your way to me
Let it be because you tried
Not because I pulled on you
Not because I tried to hide
Maybe love is just a door
That only opens from both sides
I’ll be here with my hand on the handle
You decide, you decide
If you find your way to me
Let it be because you tried
Not because I pulled on you
Not because I tried to hide