Chapter 1, Page 7 Shocking the hippocampus into functioning…

Chapter 1, Page 7
Shocking the hippocampus into functioning
Whilst on the sofa trying to cope with my stonking headache I’m doing all I can to distract myself away from it. The pain is so unbelievably intense & for the first time in my life I can’t rub it, I can’t spray anything on it, I can’t even prod it. I have to try live with it residing in the centre of my head. Every second that passes feels like a minute & every minute feels like an hour. I can’t watch “shit” video’s either, they seem to make it worse. Music doesn’t help. I have to turn it off. I find myself strangely addicted to true live crime. It has to be real, it can’t be any bullshit fictional drama. The more traumatic the story the better I feel. I never used to watch traumatic true-life crime because I found it too traumatising (funnily enough), but now, watching it feels so good! Am I developing some sick satisfaction from other people’s misfortune? What the hell is going on? I keep watching in fascination, absorbing more & more…
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