The toppic of #retaining is about LIFE-ENERGY. Before I …

The toppic
of #retaining
is about LIFE-ENERGY.
Before I ever heard of it, I was suspecting it. Because even as a woman, I noticed the immense difference between the orgasmic feeling and the mere nerve-stimmulation till the nerve would bite you if it could.
(Also, for a little side note, a twitch is never a sign of something good. But it's ALWAYS as if everyone has lost their common sense when belief is implanted in their minds. The human imagination just fills in the blanks to compensate for real understanding.)
What got me wondering, and feeling convinced that I had picked up on something of truth against all lies, once again, but this time adding to the awareness I already felt about the sexual side of us, was the fact that the nerve stimulation eventually just leads to a feeling of ... well, something similar to feeling turned off, like when you're full after eating and don't want any more food, and feel that even just the smell of the food is unpleasant, even though it was so attractive before you ate. In a similar way you don't actually don't want any further touch for now, but have gotten used to override this feeling, because the world seems to be saying that you're not normal if now that the guy made your nerves twitch, you rather pull away, or push him away. And when speaking with women about this overstimulated nerve sensation, girl to girl, they admit that there's something to this.
Whereas the feeling that comes from "just" making love from first touch, touching from a feeling"place" of feeling love in the sensation of touching skin, feeling "just" love and a sort of admiration for the feeling of each other, each other's body ~"each others temple", gently merging and really creating a tertiary field, eventually leads to a feeling that is more as if you can't get enough, and it leaves you in a daze with each other, it eventually begins to leave you feeling high on life together, feeling that on some level ... on the non-physical plane, in the world of energy or so, you are king and queen or so, god and goddess, like you have formed a new universe together, or have become one with the universe through each other, or have gotten your throne or kingdom together. Perhaps the two of you together becomes a kingdom in itself. Words become poor here. But there is some power, some elevation. True satisfaction!
Most people aproach sex in a way that has a sense of Consuming to it, a sensenof just wanting to take, to just Have, have sex, much like you just have a meal. As if all they really want, or think they need, is to just use another body to really just jerk off in. Obviously porn has programmed people, hijacked their sexual nature, twisted it, and trapped the minds in the twisted ways.
Anyway, some decade after having registered that my life-long suspition about the sexual side of us being manipulated was definately true, as I had picked up on this something that had me wondering, then finally one day Santos Bonacci talked about something that related directly to it, andbthe more he spoke, the more in detail he went, the fuller the sense became. But it was oriented around the male, not the female. But it fit right in to what I had picked up on and wondered about. It made his version for the male fit prefectly with my own female experience. It fell right into place.
It made man and woman fit together in the right way.
Not to mention that when a man gets such controll, and has the awareness that his semen is a lifeenergy, a power of life that ejaculation is literally the draining of, then a calm grows and becomes pressent. A powerful calm. A calm full of power. A powerful pressence gradually comes through. It can take days, weeks or months.
Eventually the old hijacked version turns out to have a franticness to it, a greed, a sense of a state of the ego having been in the captivity, in cantivity of abopted lies producing self betrayal and self drainage, overall a misuse, an unhealthy misuse which as well turned outward and began comsuming instead of rejoicing. It comes to stand like a madness that one could not have pointed out.
Turns out that the manual to spirituality should be about this. Because as it turns out, the true christ consciousness comes from the fact that the fluid not wasted, not transformed into waste that just gets ejaculated, it instead travels up the spine, up and into the pineal gland.
A man becomes powerful. He decomes more himself, more restful in himself, more healthy, and more fertile. He becomes so strong that it makes him calm.
Man becomes free of the bondage of that twisted version of sexuality. He becomes able to love and protect. Instead of being an addict enslaved to sex and money/status. He become The Status himself. He becomes a real man in full ownership and control of his energy, instead of drained and addicted to some illusion from a lie. And his woman adores him. She adores this man. Together they have become god and goddess.
The Canadian guy from Veget…